Welcome to my world

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I’m so excited about the opportunity to blog. I love good conversation and in a perfect world I’d have a big beautiful porch with rockers and other similar seating, days warmed by sunshine,  iced tea and lemonade for refreshment, and the company of close friends and loved ones where we were all engaged in conversation sharing thoughts, feelings and a lot of laughs.

However, this is not my present reality, much as I’d love it to be, so I find I do the best I can with what I have. While a blog is not a personal two way conversation, it will serve as a good medium wherein I can share my thoughts, feelings and opinions.I hope I am able to write things that are edifying, entertaining or otherwise enjoyable to read. I’d really enjoy positive feedback.

I will also use this forum as a means to share some of the good reads I enjoy. I have a passion for learning and I also enjoy good fiction. Since childhood I’ve been a real mystery buff. Most of my blogging will be on non-fiction, however, as I want to share about some of the good and edifying work that I come across.

With any luck I’ll be able to write something that resonates with you, enough so that you look forward to hearing from me again.

Until then…         Gina Torso shot-crop

It’s becoming clearer

I’m hard pressed to describe my feelings upon listening to the following youtube.

What I do know is, while doing so, the dream I was given back in October 2016 suddening came to my mind and I believe I’ve a very good idea when it will take place in relation to events surrounding the “blessed hope”, which is for those who have chosen to believe on the name of Jesus Christ.

Acts 16:30-31

30 And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved?

31 And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.

For those not familiar, or for those who want a refresher, my dream is blogged here: Raining Fire, and here:Raining Fire update and revision

I hope, along with reading of my dream, you will listen to the following youtube and see if you recognize the correlation I am making between what she shares and my dream–specifically where she talks about something happening just prior to the days of darkness.

For me, it makes sense–particularly as I have always and still have complete confidence the dream I was given was a message from God. I didn’t know, at the time, why I was given the dream. I’m still not sure. I just know I was, and I trust fully there is a purpose, and I find with time, and combined with the messages given to others, it begins to become more clear.

Most importantly, I know that since it was from God, I need to pay attention; I also believe I need to share my experience with others.

Salvation

The Word of Faith Brings Salvation

Whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

Romans 10: 

Brethren, my heart’s desire and my prayer to God for them is for their salvation.

For I testify about them that they have a zeal for God, but not in accordance with knowledge.

For not knowing about God’s righteousness and seeking to establish their own, they did not subject themselves to the righteousness of God.

For Christ is the [a]end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes.

For Moses writes that the man who practices the righteousness which is [b]based on law shall live [c]by that righteousness.

But the righteousness [d]based on faith speaks as follows: “Do not say in your heart, ‘Who will ascend into heaven?’ (that is, to bring Christ down),

or ‘Who will descend into the abyss?’ (that is, to bring Christ up from the dead).”

But what does it say? “The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart”—that is, the word of faith which we are preaching,

[e]that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved;

10 for with the heart a person believes, [f]resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, [g]resulting in salvation.

11 For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes in Him will not be [h]disappointed.”

12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, abounding in riches for all who call on Him;

13 for Whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+10&version=NASB

To whom else would I go?

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‘ Then Jesus said unto the twelve, “Will ye also go away?”

 Then Simon Peter answered Him,

“Lord, to whom shall we go? Thou hast the words of eternal life,

 and we believe and are sure that Thou art that Christ, the Son of the living God.” ‘

John 6:67-69

 

Today

What if today were the day the Lord was coming for his Bride;  the true and faithful followers of Jesus Christ?

Would you be going with Him, to meet Him in the clouds and be with Him forever?

Are you spiritually ready?

We never know when, and even today could be that day.

1 Thessalonians 4:16-18

16 For the Lord Himself shall descend from Heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet of God; and the dead in Christ shall rise first;

17 then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so shall we ever be with the Lord.

18 Therefore comfort one another with these words.

Judgement coming to America?

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“Judgement is coming to America”.

Okay, I realize that is both a phrase rather cliché as well as a phrase sounding extreme. But before you write me off as “mad” or a “nutter”, I hope you’ll hear me out.

To start, in October of 2016 I was shown, in a dream, a vision of something to come. You can read about it here.

Then there is what happened last night:

Just minutes after 1 a.m. I woke up abruptly, in a sweat, which may have had more to do with the fabric of my nightwear, but more importantly I awoke in a bit of alarm at what I had just heard in my sleep.

I’d been having what I’d call a flash dream; one that seemed mostly of symbolic pictures and was a very brief dream. It is what was spoken that caused me to awaken with a start.

I heard: “Saturday will be the start of a weekend from Hell”.

I knew when I heard it and when I awoke it was not meant as a personal warning that applied to my personal life but that it was meant more globally; just how far reaching I don’t know.

Upon awaking, while I can’t define why, my immediate sense was this was the Lord speaking, so my response was to pray, in which I said if it was the Lord speaking I was listening and could I please have some form of confirmation.

I was so charged with adrenaline I got up for a drink and some melatonin to help me in getting back to sleep. While standing at my kitchen sink with a cup of water in my hand I felt prompted to read scripture.

I sat in my recliner with Bible in my lap having no idea what I should read. I opened the Bible and soon found I was looking at the heading of Lamentations chapter 4.

I have no recollection of ever voluntarily reading from Lamentations. Truth be told, I tend to avoid chapters from of the Old Testament as it’s typically so hard to understand. Thus it is the only time I read from it is if I am directed to, and typically the only way I understand what I’m reading is with enlightenment to my mind by way of the Holy Spirit.

Last night, in the middle of the night, found me not only reading, but understanding what I was reading, and the implication of it being very clear to me.

After reading Lamentations chapter 4, I flipped some pages ahead and found my attention was drawn to Ezekiel chapter 18. With this I could, again, see practical application.

This Sunday, June 4th is Pentecost Sunday. If you, like I was until recently, are unclear on what Pentecost Sunday here, this link will take you to an article about it.

http://www.refinery29.com/2017/05/156868/what-is-pentecost-spiritual-meaning

Early this past Tuesday morning, before I awoke, I heard in my sleep, “Pentecost is in four days”. At the time I was perplexed by this, and didn’t speak much about it because it didn’t make sense to me.

However, going forward in 24 hour blocks of time, from when I heard those words to four days forward brings it to Saturday morning, June 3rd, which is this Saturday.

That experience has taken on more meaning to me after my experience last night.

I realize the 4th chapter of Lamentations is written in regard to Israel, however, as I read it in the middle of last night, the impression that came to me was it is a message for America.

Like was Israel, as described, America has become like tarnished gold that has become dull through wickedness. And because of this wickedness, judgement and punishment is coming to humble the people of America. Of this, many are the warnings that have been issued, by others.

As described in Lamentations, where once we ate fine food, I believe we will beg for bread and be destitute in the streets.

While all of the text seemed to speak to me, verses 6 and 22 seemed to particularly stand out. I originally read from the KJV, but for easier readability, I’ll post them in HCSB version:

6) The punishment of my dear people
is greater than that of Sodom,
which was overthrown in an instant
without a hand laid on it.

22) Daughter Zion, your punishment is complete;
He will not lengthen your exile.
But He will punish your iniquity, Daughter Edom,
and will expose your sins.

Ezekiel chapter 18 is about personal responsibility for sin. I believe verses 26-32  speak the message I am to share:

26 When a righteous person turns from his righteousness and practices iniquity, he will die for this. He will die because of the iniquity he has practiced. 27 But if a wicked person turns from the wickedness he has committed and does what is just and right, he will preserve his life. 28 He will certainly live because he thought it over and turned from all the transgressions he had committed; he will not die. 29 But the house of Israel says, ‘The Lord’s way isn’t fair.’ Is it My ways that are unfair, house of Israel? Instead, isn’t it your ways that are unfair?

30 “Therefore, house of Israel, I will judge each one of you according to his ways.” This is the declaration of the Lord God. “Repent and turn from all your transgressions, so they will not be a stumbling block that causes your punishment. 31 Throw off all the transgressions you have committed, and get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit. Why should you die, house of Israel? 32 For I take no pleasure in anyone’s death.” This is the declaration of the Lord God. “So repent and live!

As I am not a prophet, I can’t say what is going to happen, or that anything will actually happen; my intention is not to prophesy anything.

I am merely sharing my experience as I’ve had it. If nothing happens, out of the ordinary, this Saturday, June 3rd, then we should all thank and praise God.

But as I have had experiences in the past where I’ve believed I heard a word from the Lord, and then events followed that confirmed to me it was not just my imagination, but was in fact from the Lord, I don’t dare not share what I experienced last night, as if this truly is a warning, I feel it my responsibility to issue the warning.

As I don’t know what may be coming, I don’t know just what we are to do to prepare.

I believe the most important things we can do are as follows:

1) Sincerely pray, seeking to draw near, or nearer, to our God and repent of all things we, individually, are in need of repenting of.

2) Sincerely pray for the protection of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

3) If not already done, immediately stock our pantries with emergency food, water and other emergency supplies; stock enough to sustain ourselves and our immediate families for at least two weeks.

4) Pray, read scripture, and pray some more.

Even If

In thinking back on it, I realized I could have guessed something was coming. Yes I did notice and think it curious that this song kept playing through my mind; when I say continuous I mean it very literally, for the previous 48 hours.

I do like the song, very much. I was very touched by its message the first time I heard it. But to wake in the middle of the night to hear it playing in my mind, after noting it was playing in the background of my mind (each time I paid attention) throughout the day, struck me as curious.

So within the first day or so after waking up in inexpressible pain, the fact that song had played through my mind continuously for 48 hours prior to being struck with this trial was not lost on me. That very first morning, prior to being able to take a first dose of prescription pain meds, I cried out to God: “WHY THIS!”

I’ve known pain and I’ve known sorrow, but to date, I have never known endless physical pain in the level it is debilitating.

When, on the third day, something shifted somewhere within my hip/back, so that the intense, continuous nerve pain settled down to a low roar, rather than an intense roar, I was so thankful. For the first time I could now carefully hobble on my feet, as opposed to only being able to crawl, and even sometimes not being able to manage that as the attempt left me lying on the floor crying in pain.

Thankfully after a week that included a massage and a chiropractic visit, the pain became bearable so long as I was continuously on medication. After a second chiropractic visit and massage there were days I was able to go long stretches with minimal medication in my waking hours, but nights were terrible. I was waking every two hours in terrible pain that had me taking another Excedrin and hobbling about to shake things loose, then massaging  pain rub up and down my entire leg from my hip to my ankle on the outer side of my thigh and shin. The pain seemed to originate from my hip joint.

I’d yet to see a primary care physician as I’d lost touch with the one I’d found four years earlier as she had moved from the facility where I once saw her, and I didn’t know where she’d gone. Thus far I’d only been able to get into see a Holistic Doctor. He set me up with natural pain meds and the massage therapy. The natural pain meds worked along with the OTC drugs and helped reduce my use of the harsher medications; I appreciated this as I worry about the health of my liver. The massages helped ease the tightness of my muscles from the cramping that came with the pain.

By the end of week two I was doing better in the day time, as far as pain. I was still unable to walk or be on my feet for more than a couple minutes at a time. However, the loss of sleep for not only me, but also my husband was taking its toll. My husband insisted I go to the ER for an MRI as thus far we’d failed to get a referral for one from the Holistic Dr. As this problem was not resolving on its own, we wanted to find out just what the problem is.

A visit to the ER turned out to be frustrating at best. As I feared, the ER doctor deemed an MRI unnecessary. She must have had a preconceived determination of my condition even though she didn’t actually even examine me. She politely but condescendingly informed me MRI equipment is very sophisticated machinery and as I’m not a professional athlete or dancer I didn’t need one. I figure what she meant but wasn’t saying is that as I’m a lowly housewife who likely strained a muscle reaching too far across the coffee table for another bon-bon while watching my soaps, I merely needed a shot in the ass (which she provided) along with a prescription for a sedative, which she prescribed. The shot for pain actually caused me more pain as my leg muscles were already extremely tender. The sedative did NOTHING for reducing pain which is what was preventing me from sleeping at night.

The only good thing that came from the ER visit is they are a part of the same network that my previous primary physician is a part of and thus through a serious of phone calls I was able to get an appointment with her two days later. From her I was issued a prescription for drugs that actually afforded me a full five hours of sleep before waking with pain and I’ve a schedule MRI to see what the heck is going on with inside my hip and leg.

The day after my appointment with my primary physician my husband was driving me to another massage appointment. On the way, on the radio this song came on again. It was the first time I’d heard it in over two weeks. I recognized it with the first few notes and said to husband: “This is my theme song”. Normally I’ll sing along with the songs I really love but this time I could not as almost immediately I began to cry and continued to cry through the whole song.

Before my massage the holistic Doc came in asking some question and had me lie on my back then asked me to lift my right leg, which I did with no problems. He then instructed I do the same with my left; just attempting to lift it cause sharp pinched nerve pain to radiate in my hip and groin.

After my massage, while in the car waiting for my husband to buy slushies for the girls, I, seemingly randomly, tucked my right foot under my left thigh. I then pulled my right knee towards my chest holding it in a mild stretch. I then let go of my knee and for unexplained reasons it seemed to suddenly drop. In process of that drop I heard and felt a very loud POP in my groin. It scared and startled me, but I quickly realized I felt no pain so hoped it was not a negative. On the way home as I told Brian about it I realized the pain in my hip seemed to have eased up.

The next morning, although I still HAD to take narcotics to sleep (that pain is still alive and well) I noted my gait is improved. Then I got curious so laid on my back on the floor and repeated the leg lift. This time I was able to lift my left leg with NO pain!!

In sharing about this to my adult daughter, she suggested it quite likely my hip had popped out of socket!!

What’s scary about this is if this is correct, then I have almost three weeks of possible damage due to it not being corrected right away. As I’ve had a slippy joint for some time, (I now recognize the many symptoms of the past to suggest this) I’ll go ahead with the MRI as I still have plenty of pain and discomfort and don’t have any desire to go back to for a repeat of the past weeks.

In the meantime, even though I’m not back to normal, I’m so very thankful to be as improved as I am. I do have HOPE of healing, but NO MATTER what happens, what I now know, in my heart and soul, is “even if” it is well with my soul. I now know the Lord is with me, and He cares, and He’ll carry me through come what may.

Measure of Success

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It was the ultimate goal; heralded by the average red blooded American, and this person believed in it fully; they had the will, the determination and the drive to make it happen.

And make it happen, they would at all costs. While others wasted precious time in recreation recreation-1238050

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and children, a-child-1431845

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and other worthy and worthwhile pursuits,

this motivated soul deemed them unnecessary and sacrificed all for the fulfillment of “the” dream.

Alas, the hard work paid off!

With the mortgage paid on their million dollar condo condo-shots-1222076

And designer labeled clothing and shoes packed in the newly acquired designer Luggage ready-to-go-1472989

And five Star Hotel reservations lined up at various  points around the globe greece-hotel-1222019

And tomorrow marked as the day to, at last, set sail in the newly purchased Catalina 425 Yacht

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All the hard work, long hours, and other sacrifices seemed well worth it.

On the road home from running last minute errands  came an unexpected downpour, in which the sleek Alpha Romeo, yet another  prized and cherished possession,nice-car-alpha-romeo-1454825

began to hydroplane and spun out of control, thus becoming mangled beyond recognition when impacting a very solid immovable object. In mere seconds came about the end of life for both driver and car.175017523

No more would they reside in the luxury condo, or have use or need of the designer luggage currently housing the exquisite designer clothes. Despite the time, toil and sacrifice made, they would never now set sail in the gorgeous yacht that was an integral part of the long desired dream vacation.

Never again would they, or anyone else, ever again drive that dream car.

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Their last earthly breath had been spent; all the sacrifices, all the missed opportunities that allowed for the acquisition of the fine worldly possessions, was now in vain, as not one of the possessions could be taken or used where this person would now exist.

Yes, they had stored up treasure, but…..

Matthew 6:19-21

19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:

20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:

21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

Luke 12:16-21

16 Then He told them a parable: “A rich man’s land was very productive.17 He thought to himself, ‘What should I do, since I don’t have anywhere to store my crops? 18 I will do this,’ he said. ‘I’ll tear down my barns and build bigger ones and store all my grain and my goods there. 19 Then I’ll say to myself, “You have many goods stored up for many years. Take it easy; eat, drink, and enjoy yourself.”’

20 “But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life is demanded of you. And the things you have prepared—whose will they be?’

21 “That’s how it is with the one who stores up treasure for himself and is not rich toward God.”

A warning for your discernment

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If what I’ve just pieced together is for real, we’ve something very serious on the near horizon.

But as I cannot say for certain, having not received personal confirmation of it, at least not yet, I leave this for each who sees it for your prayerful discernment:

On Friday, April 14 I listened to the following video. I’ll admit the warning he shares, at about 8 minutes in, gave me pause for concern.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6Yrm45rV0M

Then today I saw the following, in the comments section of a completely unrelated video:

” I awoke this morning to a dream that a small muslim boy was whispering to me that in 3 days something huge was going to happen and the muslims were doing some attack. He was terrified. I knew it was a huge thing, and for some reason the Lord hid from me the details spoken to me in the dream.”

(posted by Barbara Alexandria on Thursday, April 20th 2017)

Upon reading what this person shared of her dream of last night, the aforementioned warning, which now really has my attention, came immediately to mind. The first thing I did was recall what day today is followed by a finger count.

Depending on how you count, 3 days from today could be either Saturday, or it could be Sunday.

So, if her dream is truly a warning from God, and if the speaker of the above posted video is truly receiving a warning from God, then those of us who attend church might do well to pray for discernment and guidance.

And no matter what we do, we need to each, individually, ensure our heart is right with our maker, as even if NOTHING out of the ordinary happens this Sunday, we really can’t ever know which day is our last day in this mortal life.

That said, the above quotation is found in the comments section of this video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mRU4fQT97cA

 

 

Ounce of prevention

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I’ve just spent the past 3 ½ days in pain hell!!

And the worst of it is, it could have all been prevented…if only I’d….you know, famous last words, as they say.

My late grandmother was often wont to quote: “an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure”

 

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In theory, I truly do see the wisdom in this; the problem is when one’s life seems too busy to take a moment to exercise the “ounce of prevention”.

About the time it takes a “pound of cure” to fix or correct what once would have only taken an “ounce” is about the time one really wishes one had taken that moment, as the “cure” so often takes far more in every way.

After a fitful night of sleep, unable to get comfortable and experiencing pain with every attempt to move, I awoke Sunday morning intending to get up to use the toilet only to collapse back upon my bed in a scream, as pain radiated from my foot up my leg in an intensity unlike anything I can recall ever experiencing.

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I very literally had to crawl on hands and knees to the toilet whereupon I used my arms to hoist myself up only to be overcome with nausea and lightheadedness.

Life experience has taught me this is the forerunner to passing out, something I had no desire to do while half naked (or any condition otherwise for that matter), which is why mere seconds later I was lying on the cold floor while waves of nausea subsided.

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While others celebrated Easter (hopefully) joyfully, I spent Easter Sunday ingesting a cocktail of drugs: anti-spasm, anti-inflammatory, and anti-pain.

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While I was extremely thankful for the drugs, as prior to their effectiveness kicking in, thoughts of death held a definite appeal; nothing eliminated the pain, at best they kept it tolerable.

And one false move (of which I unintentionally managed many) sent what felt like 220 volts of shock waves coursing up and down my leg.download (5)

Gravity became my enemy as lowering my leg from couch to floor was an experience equal to torture. Walking was a thing of my past; with enough drugs I could hobble when absolutely necessary.

Physically, even though I’m rather a little woman, I’m still pretty tough, both physically and emotionally. But this experience; this pain, brought me to my knees, figuratively, and brought me to tears, literally. On a scale of 1 to 10, it was off the charts (well okay, but it was definitely a 10).images

Initially I thought I had a sciatic nerve being pinched. From a phone call on Monday, the chiropractor I used to see, whom I’ve haven’t seen in years (who the heck has the time for such things) said he wouldn’t see me until I saw a medical doctor and got a scan done to see what the actual problem was.

Dang, I didn’t even have a primary physician; last one I had moved elsewhere and I was too busy to get around to finding another.

Thankfully a friend recently filled in for someone who works at a local Homeopathic, Holistic medical practice; a clinic where they were happy to fit me in the very next day.

My husband was a bit concerned with what he witnessed as this doctor examined me and then pushed and held onto various parts of my feet and pelvis.images (7)Smartly-pants husband later said he wondered if Doctor might start chanting.

All I know is I slept better last night, and this morning, while stretching my back, I felt something give way just a little; enough so that it no longer felt like I had electric pulses coursing through my leg. I figured something eased a little pressure off of the pinched nerve.

Today in a visit to a massage specialist, (same clinic), I learned I didn’t have symptoms of sciatica but instead am dealing with other pinched nerves.images

Thanks to our fantastic resource, the internet, I was able to learn where a few of the different nerves run, and their function, which helped me determine the highest probability is I’ve pinched femoral nerve, and saphenous nerves.1452198295_lateral-femoral-cutaneous-nerve

What’s really amazing is this also sheds light on a chronic issue I’ve been dealing with for SIX YEARS for which even a “specialist” only did a best guess at my “mystery” issue!!

For years I’ve thought I had a bone issue, but the very spot where I have unnatural sensitivity is exactly where the saphenous nerve runs along the medial border of the tibia (inner side of my shin bone). Finally, at last, even that problem now makes sense.

It is that VERY spot I accidentally smacked Saturday night; the night where only a few hours later, I started having serious pain all up and down my leg that led me to waking up with an inflamed pinched nerve mess!

Turns out the saphenous nerve runs the length of the leg.

The femoral nerve affects the outer portion of the thigh; that and the front of my thigh were rock hard when I arrived at the massage therapist’s office.

My next visit is to a chiropractor, tomorrow, to get my spine realigned as my hips are where the nerves run through  download (8) and I know my hips are out of alignment.

My next assignment, for now, is a hot soak in an Epsom salts bath.download (9)

My next massage is Tuesday.

My advice: listen to your body, be careful with your body, spend a little of your resources to tend to problems when they arise rather than waiting until you are in such pain you’d rather be dead.

Had I listened to my husband, I’d have been in for a massage Saturday, after waking up that morning feeling a twinge. I didn’t go because I was “too busy”; I had too much to do to take the time.

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One hour of time for one massage on Saturday would have relaxed my muscles; the very muscles and ligaments that, via inflammation, pinched those nerves.

Instead I’ve paid a HUGE price in pain, suffering, tears, and lots of time I couldn’t accomplish much of anything beyond surviving, over that choice.

Another of grandma’s favorites was: a stitch in time saves nine. images (10)I just “paid” ten stitches, next time I’m catching it when it’s only one.